three weeks to go

bismillah.

three weeks to go? kenapa tiga minggu? coz i know i wont spend much on the eid's week. its family bonding time. and much, its home. home is where, if possible, i dont want to face the books. facebook is okay. hihi

but as dr. fakhrul said, "biar studi gila babas," eheh. he was once a pasumian, physical's . but he felt the same thing like us. the same depression to get a's. the same tiredness to catch up all those things. though it was 12 years ago, but yeah, not much things are distinct.

and as he said again, "time flies, guys,"

yeah. time. flies.

its not even moving. its not even running.

its flying.

how i wish i can turn to the first week of MHS, and started the first lecture of biology, followed by the next lectures, focus in the class, up to date with all the notes and tutorials and extra readings, managed to finished those homework on time. and the thing i wish the most, i do really really hope, i can catch up all the lectures on time; up to date.

really. i am. the last wish. i do really hope it will come true.

*sigh*

this is my first time having a depression like this. extremely dipress. yang sampai kau tak tau nak buat yang mana dulu dah. yes i know it was my bad. dulu. sebulan yang lalu. sebulan yang lalu. it was my bad. and now, im facing the impacts. this fast. sebulan je. really.

masa zaman spm tak macam ni pun. paling kurang kalau aku stress, sabtu malam ahad atau masa esoknya cuti, malam tu kitorang akan tengok movie sama-sama, buat mega maggi, dan melalak satu dorm. dan lupakan semua homework, dan tido.

kat sini takde. sungguh. orang lain semua okay sebab diorang sistematik. i feel like imma the dummiest among all. serious talk. dekat dalam kelas, semua memang faham gila kot. aku je buat muka blank apa semua.

its something new. suasana yang sangat baru.

ambil ibrah dari pertengahan sem satu ni.

dan ya, dalam hati ni sentiasa berdoa, kalau ini caranya untuk aku jadi hamba yang lebih matang, maka aku redha. ujian ramadhan.

aku rasa membazir masa updating this rambling.